“Feeling like the luckiest girl in the world!…”
“Seriously you guys, I’m going to start playing the lottery, and when I win, boudoir shoots for everyone, at Blush Studio of course. Let me just tell you, this is coming from the girl that truly believed, for years, that I had the worst luck in the world! Well not really the worst, but you know what I’m saying.
“In 2015, just ten short weeks after giving birth to my sweet baby boy, I was diagnosed with peripartum cardiomyopathy, and chronic heart Failure. My ejection fraction was just 10-15%. I found myself in the hospital fighting for my life, and fighting to keep my childrens mother alive, because let’s be honest, when you turn the fight to your kids, you will walk through hell, and back again! Later we found out that I actually have a very rare genetic mutation that effects the heart muscle, by weakening it, causing it to become enlarged. They know of about 100 people worldwide that have tested positive for this. Long story short, I was told, over and over again, that I would need a transplant, that my heart was too damaged, and too enlarged, to sustain life.
“To be honest I was pissed, I had symptoms for years, and they were missed, ignored, and explained away. So I took to social media to share my story. I wanted women to know that this can happen, that you can look perfectly healthy on the outside, and be dying on the inside. I needed women to know that you have to push back, and be your own advocate.
“Fast forward 3 years, let me just tell you all, I am living my very best life. I have squeezed so much lemonade out of these lemons! My ejection fraction is 30-35%! My heart is close to being normal in size! Most importantly though, I still have MY heart in MY chest, and I am raising my three babies, just like I should be! Not to mention I have met so many amazing women, and built so many irreplaceable friendships through this journey. ❤️
“I have found so many silver linings since being diagnosed, but some, like winning Blush’s boudoir giveaway, would actually have to be considered a platinum lining! When my amazing sister n law showed me her Blush pictures I was blown away. I knew I had to do it one day, but with medical bills piling up, I knew that it wouldn’t happen anytime soon. Then she told me about the giveaway, she told me I deserved it. After reading all of the other stories, I was super hesitant. So many amazing women, their struggles, their triumphs. Knowing so many of these women were more deserving than myself. I went for it anyway, after all, I had nothing to lose.
“The morning the giveaway was announced I couldn’t believe it. My sister in law called me and I was speechless. To say I was excited was an understatement. Honestly, I still can’t believe it. But… with every ounce of excitement I felt, I felt ten times more anxious! Seriously, I had looked through every single picture on the website, every picture on the Facebook site, and every last picture on Instagram. The whole time thinking to myself, no way, I can’t do this. My body is destroyed after having three c sections, gaining and losing weight for years, and I’m not getting any younger. The women that she photographs are beautiful, flawless, and perfect. I certainly didn’t think that was me.
“I scheduled my shoot for September, thinking that would give me plenty of time to drop 30 lbs and look my best. Ha! Well that didn’t happen, so as it got closer, and closer, I decided that I was going to just own it! This is me, I am not perfect, but I am good enough! Life is short, if we wait for perfection, we will be waiting forever. So I went for it.
“As soon as I walked through those pink doors I felt at home(maybe because I grew up in and old white brick farmhouse just like that one). But mostly because I was welcomed by the sweetest makeup artist Trista, and hairstylist, Jessica. In just a short time they had transformed me! As soon as I looked in the mirror I felt fierce and beautiful!
“Just as we were finishing up Tracy walked in, she immediately greeted me with a big hug! You can’t help but to just fall in love with her as soon as you meet her. Without a doubt, she is a true earth angel. Everything from her smile, to her adorable laugh, just warms your heart. She is someone you instantly feel comfortably around, and want to be friends with.
“When we made our way upstairs I was blown away by how beautiful all of the sets were. Straight out of Pinterest! After going through my outfits, Tracy picked one to ease me into it. A soft pink, off the shoulder sweater. As soon as we started shooting all of my nervousness just disappeared. Everything about it was different than I had expected. Tracy is amazing at what she does. Everything little movement is calculated, every hair is put in place, everything about it was different than I had expected. Tracy is amazing at what she does. Everything little movement is calculated, every hair is put in place, every insecurity is covered up. She is a woman with a vision, and all you have to do is take her advice, and direction, and boom, magic is made! Every single little detail is perfection. Not only is every little pose thoughtfully perfected, but she makes you feel like you are a just killing it the whole time! I have never felt more beautiful in my life, than I felt during that photo shoot. It was hands down one of the most empowering experiences of my life!
“I am so incredibly grateful to have met, and worked with Tracy and her team at Blush. She was made for this work!
If ever you find yourself on the fence about doing a shoot, I say go for it! Don’t wait till you lose that 10 pounds, or your legs are more toned. Don’t spend anytime focusing on imperfections. Do it for you! I promise you’ll be so happy you did! It is life changing! Feeling like the luckiest girl in the world! Forever thankful! ❤️❤️” – Golda
Photographer: Tracy Pote
Makeup Artist: Trista Noe
Hairstylist: Jessica Foiles
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